Vocation
My forms arrived from SFC today for withdrawing from the subjects I had enrolled in for this semester. I had to withdraw from the intensive because I’ve already used up too much leave this year with my injured finger. I had to withdraw from the Wednesday morning lecture because I’m no longer doing formation so will be working full-time rather than the part-time arrangement I’d come to for work. Which leaves my Tuesday night lecture and a big question mark in my mind as to whether I will continue studying or call it quits.
This has made me take stock even more than I was at new year. This has made me look back over the last five years and think about where I’ve been and how I got here.
Just a month before some Al-Qaeda terrorists decided to change the world in September of 2001, I had also decided that it was time to change the world. My scheme was a lot less violent and consisted of me quitting my job so that I could go and find some work that I felt really fulfilled my unique set of skills and interests. The work that God wanted me to do.
This is how I started the decade and moved through several jobs, a semester here and there in various degrees I dropped out of, involvement in environmental groups, subscriptions to social justice magazines and blogs, my own blog and last year, putting my hand up for the priestly formation program.
And I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.
But I’m getting closer. I have found a new vocation this year and it’s different to anything I’ve done before. It involves some study, some work, it’s technical but has a bit of a human side. It involves my family but also will engage friends and strangers. It’s hopeful and seeks to find God’s perfection in all places and situations. It has a religious and spiritual component but might also be focussed on worldly things.
Are you wondering what my new vocation is?
My new vocation is to be – right now and as I am.
Posted: January 31st, 2007 under Big Questions, Theology.
Comments: 2
Comments
Comment from Brandon
Time: 14/2/2007, 10:03 pm
somehow this reminds me of a homily by fr. mark thamer (i think that’s how you spell his last name) i heard late last year watching st john’s university’s student mass live on the net all the way from minnesota.
Comment from william
Time: 14/2/2007, 3:14 pm
I like your new vocation, but it’s the same as it always was – to be you, a better you. If that means you see your better you in a dog collar (visible or invisible), go for it. I see vocation to Orders as being about your relationship to the church and your community, not about having a different relationship with God.
Hope you make the right decision.
William